Now WHAT!!

I love him, I miss him but I don't want him back. I love my life with him, I want him around me but I hate the pain of being with him. He's stalking me, I'm stalking him and we both know and we both stand helplessly watching, watching the wind take away our dreams, watching the time take away our years, watching misery take away our laughter but what can we say or do.. The show must go on and it will go on, we are both nothing but grains of the sand in the vast desert called Life..

How long will this pain last, how long will I ache, how long will it be till I'm over him, Nobody knows but yet again the show must go on..

Fairytale Ended

Its over, yes its over, we are not meant for each other, first time for me to admit it, and I will let it go, I will not stay another night crying, I will not dream of you anymore, I will not wish for you to come back to me again.

لاتحزن إذا منع الله عنك شيئا تحبه ,فلو علمت كيف يدبر الله أمورك لذاب قلبك من محبته

Get out of my life for good and Good luck in your life without me..

Eye to Eye!!

Today I saw him Eye to Eye and suddenly my whole life stopped, I thought seeing him would make everything go back the way it was or at least revive those hidden feelings and emotions that were once overflowing for each other, but suddenly it all felt so cold, it all felt so dead inside, never had I wished to see that day, today I died, everything good inside me died, today I took my heart off my chest..

But there is only one question left to be answered and I'd give my whole life to get its answer is; how on earth can anyone hurt the one he loves in such way, how could anyone forget the good times, the shared dreams, the long talks, the times we stood by one another?!!

Today I died and yet I can't seem to seek revenge for my murderer cos when I gave my heart to him, I gave it to him for good, its his for all the coming years, so If I have to die now, I'd be happy to die by his own hands like I always wished I would die in his hands, it doesn't really make that difference, what really matters that one day we were one, one day we cared, one day we were ONE..

What's Now?!!

And now that its all over, I can't believe I'm writing "Its Over" with my own hands, I wished my life would end before I see that day, I wish I'd never watch another sunshine.. Lost, Confused, Hurt and Alone, a year lost of my life or was it the only year I've lived in my life.. Will I start living now or has Life just stopped, its like the world suddenly stopped spinning and everything froze around me..

Will I ever trust anyone else, do I still trust you, do I still believe you were telling me the truth, do I love you and If I do love you, will it ever stop or do I even want it to stop..

I feel I'm going out of my mind, too many questions left unanswered and the only one who could help my think, left my high and dry and did not bother to ask.

Ya Rab, help my find the way..

The End!!

Is it coming to an end, will this beautiful dream end just like that, Its tearing me apart that I can't do anything to keep my dreams safe.. I feel lost in a world I don't even know with no one to ask for directions, ya Rab help me out here..

I want my life back together, I just want to close my eyes and open it to find everything settled and to find me again.

How could dreams turn to nightmares, how could the only one who can put a smile on your face be the only one who can make you cry..

Ya Rab, some Guidance and Peace of Mind..

Private Property

Its almost a year since I've known you and with each passing day I love you even more and I grow more certain that you love me the same way too, and no matter what people say, I'll always be yours and you'll always be mine, Private Property Forever :)

I miss you

I miss you and its killing me to feel that helpless, I feel like I'm addicted to you, I can't think of anything but you. I wish I could be like you to love without being over attached, to love and yet be able to live my life the way I used to, to love and not be weakened by this love.

I wish I could go back to the strong girl I used to be but the only difference this time is to have you by myside to make me even stronger. I wish you could share your dreams with me, you could let your feelings flow, just release your brakes and let go coz there is nothing hide and nothing to fear anymore, or am I the only one who feels that way??

People think I'm going crazy but they just can't realize that I only falling head over heels for you and I like it I really do but why cant I feel you falling for me, why are you trying to act all grown up while I feel like I'm exploring life for the very first time with you...

Oh, how I love you and just cant let you go...