Ramadan's Blessings

Ramadan Blessings is in the air, I miss you and I miss my blog but I was in a really bad mood as I was unemployed for a long while but el7amdollelah I found a job in Ramadan regardless what others were saying..

Happy Ramadan, never lose hope, everything bad comes to an end eventually.

The Father's Death

Two days ago, a close friend of mine's father died, he was neither old nor young (in his early sixties) but I guess age doesn't even make a difference in death. Death is never discriminatory neither by age, sex, religion or race and it hits fiercely and suddenly even if we think we are prepared to hear the bad news all the time, it always gets us by surprise.

A Father's Death is one of the worst, specially for a girl (may be its the same for boys & girls but I'd never know that for sure). A girl loses her security & support in life by losing her father (as we say in Arabic, byeb2a malhash dahr anymore) even if that girl is married and has a family of her own, its always devastating for her, and of course the same applies for the wife who loses her husband to face the world alone.

What I wanted to ask from you is to read the Fat7a for Eng. Osama & ask Allah to give his family Patience and Faith to accept it.
I will always remember you...

I can proudly admit that I've been FOOLED

I thought I found the man of my dreams at last, I knew him only a couple of days ago, he strangely conquered my life in a way that no one before him ever could do. However now I've discovered that I was fooled...

Yes, I was fooled, he's not in it for real in a way and I do thank God that he always gives me the strength to say NO and to refuse situations I can't bear.

Yet, very strangely I feel happy and content that I my heart started beating again even if it was for the wrong guy, that beautiful hunk wrong guy...

Thank you Mr. Wrong for appearing in my life, even if it was for a few days because in these few days I was way happier than I ever was in the previous few years.

And sadly, I will continue waiting for you Mr. Right, to come along but please try to not be late any further :)

Dhammapada - A Buddhist Prayer

I was reading a book called "Like the Flowing River" for my favorite writer in all times "Paulo Coelho," when I read a prayer that caught my attention and thought to share it with you, it says:

"It would be better if, instead of a thousand words,
There was only one, a word that brought Peace.
It would be better if, instead of a thousand poems,
There was only one, a poem that revealed true Beauty.
It would be better if, instead of a thousand songs,
There was only one, a song that spread Happiness."

I truly recommend this book by the way and anything else by Paulo Coehlo.

Banging my Head Against the Wall

Yesterday, I started a new semester in my MBA, unfortunately it was not a good start, the instructor for that course is simply horrible, his method of teaching, style, tone of voice, everything is just horrible...

So we decided to act upon it and asked the University's Management to change the instructor but their reaction was very predictable yet very indecent and vulgar. They told us that they will do nothing about it and that we are not even authorized to evaluate the instructor at this point of time coz he is waaaaaaaaay over qualified for us "Bang your head against the wall, Ne7'bat Dema3'na fl7eeta."

The problem is not in the University, the instructor, nor the course, the basic problem that I keep facing is the attitude of "Bang your head against the wall". In my divorce, when my Ex-Husband refused to divorce or finish the procedures decently, In quitting my previous job, when my manager wanted to destroy my life one last time before I go and now with the MBA instructor. Why do people find it easy to use that mean weapon when the decision is in their hands, do we enjoy making people's life harder on them...

Well, all I know that I may use the Policy of "Bang your head against the wall" and see if I'll really enjoy it :)

Financial Crisis

We've all heard of the financial crisis and some of us were affected, I am one of the persons that were hit hard by the financial crisis in addition to other conditions that made me leave my job in this hard time.

It's been a month now since I left my job and I don't regret taking that decision, however you get frustrated when you suddenly move from a certain salary to only a tenth of this salary in a temporary position in a place you don't even belong to.

I can still remember what I felt in a college when I was expecting that companies would beg me to work there, then I was stuck by the brutal reality, although I found myself a decent job two weeks after graduation but it wasn't the job of my dreams which I'm still searching for till now ;))

Anyway, I guess that's the effect of a boring Sunday morning on me, Enjoy your time and work hard..

I'm possessed by this song

I was checking my Facebook account and checking people's statuses as I always do, when I read an interesting status for one of my friends which says "I'm possessed by this song" so of course I commented asking about the song and it turned about to be "Wala aih wala lih" for a singer called "Abdel Fattah Greiny" and the song is pretty awesome by the way...

And as long as we are discussing songs, I would like to share a couple of songs with you which are blowing my mind currently and written on my MSN and Facebook statuses, unfortunately I guess even "Nile Fm" did not start broadcasting them yet, they are:

1. "Fight for love" by "Elliott Yamen"
2. "Come back to me" by "David Cook"

Both songs are just adorable and their Lyrics is AMAZING!!! My advice, please try listening to them, Simply WOW...

My First Time Blogging

This is my first time blogging, I don't know what I'm writing or why I'm writing or will people even care to read, but sometime you reach a moment in life where you must write how you feel specially that I am not the kind of the person who can speak her mind so I'd rather write it down and hope someday someone will read it and feels the way I feel... Or not, I don't even know if I care if someone read it...

I feel I'm making no sense at all, anyway I am just an ordinary girl that went through much more than girls her age, I know that life ain't no Utopia, I know that Prince Charming Exists only in Fairy tales, I know that Santa Clause do not exist, I don't buy sweet words, I'm a more into show me actions kind of girl...

That I’m not a princess
This ain’t a fairytale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around

I guess that Taylor Swift described the way I felt in her song "White Horse," I love songs and most of my moods or facebook statuses are either songs or quotes, I love reading specially for Paulo Coelho & YES, I love his novel "Eleven Minutes" no matter how porn you think it is...

Anyway, I just wanted to tell you a bit about myself, I hope I wasn't too long & talk to you all soon...

Have a great day,
Norhan