I'd die for you and that's the truth

I know the old song said "I'd lie for you and that's the truth" but there is no need to lie anymore, I love you and my life has no meaning, no value, no life in it without you so I'd rather die than live a day without you..

I am your private property till the end of time cos I'm tired of acting that I can do it without you, I can't go on one single day without you by my side, without you in my life..

You're the sun that shines on my days, you are the warm air breeze in a winter day, you are the light that shows me the way, you are my everything and I'm blessed to have you in my life..

I guess its over...

Its over, imagine that I could say that eventually, its over and strangely enough we'll both survive.. I guess I'll stop blogging at least on this blog cos this page will always remain your private property..

Imagine that its over, the message deleted, the photos removed, the dreams and promises gone, only a faded memory of how life could have been if we were together...

Its over, GOD its over, everything dies one day and we died when our time came, we died too soon or too late I don't know but the result is the same .. DEATH ..

I wished I've never seen you or that I saw you when things were easier, lots of mixed feelings in my heart and mind but only one fact remains ITS OVER..

They once said that The Titanic was unsinkable and I once said that our love was never-ending and The Titanic did sink and our story did end but our love will always remain that faded picture perfect dream that once was my private property..

Now WHAT!!

I love him, I miss him but I don't want him back. I love my life with him, I want him around me but I hate the pain of being with him. He's stalking me, I'm stalking him and we both know and we both stand helplessly watching, watching the wind take away our dreams, watching the time take away our years, watching misery take away our laughter but what can we say or do.. The show must go on and it will go on, we are both nothing but grains of the sand in the vast desert called Life..

How long will this pain last, how long will I ache, how long will it be till I'm over him, Nobody knows but yet again the show must go on..

Fairytale Ended

Its over, yes its over, we are not meant for each other, first time for me to admit it, and I will let it go, I will not stay another night crying, I will not dream of you anymore, I will not wish for you to come back to me again.

لاتحزن إذا منع الله عنك شيئا تحبه ,فلو علمت كيف يدبر الله أمورك لذاب قلبك من محبته

Get out of my life for good and Good luck in your life without me..

Eye to Eye!!

Today I saw him Eye to Eye and suddenly my whole life stopped, I thought seeing him would make everything go back the way it was or at least revive those hidden feelings and emotions that were once overflowing for each other, but suddenly it all felt so cold, it all felt so dead inside, never had I wished to see that day, today I died, everything good inside me died, today I took my heart off my chest..

But there is only one question left to be answered and I'd give my whole life to get its answer is; how on earth can anyone hurt the one he loves in such way, how could anyone forget the good times, the shared dreams, the long talks, the times we stood by one another?!!

Today I died and yet I can't seem to seek revenge for my murderer cos when I gave my heart to him, I gave it to him for good, its his for all the coming years, so If I have to die now, I'd be happy to die by his own hands like I always wished I would die in his hands, it doesn't really make that difference, what really matters that one day we were one, one day we cared, one day we were ONE..

What's Now?!!

And now that its all over, I can't believe I'm writing "Its Over" with my own hands, I wished my life would end before I see that day, I wish I'd never watch another sunshine.. Lost, Confused, Hurt and Alone, a year lost of my life or was it the only year I've lived in my life.. Will I start living now or has Life just stopped, its like the world suddenly stopped spinning and everything froze around me..

Will I ever trust anyone else, do I still trust you, do I still believe you were telling me the truth, do I love you and If I do love you, will it ever stop or do I even want it to stop..

I feel I'm going out of my mind, too many questions left unanswered and the only one who could help my think, left my high and dry and did not bother to ask.

Ya Rab, help my find the way..

The End!!

Is it coming to an end, will this beautiful dream end just like that, Its tearing me apart that I can't do anything to keep my dreams safe.. I feel lost in a world I don't even know with no one to ask for directions, ya Rab help me out here..

I want my life back together, I just want to close my eyes and open it to find everything settled and to find me again.

How could dreams turn to nightmares, how could the only one who can put a smile on your face be the only one who can make you cry..

Ya Rab, some Guidance and Peace of Mind..